It has been a super-duper-busy sem and also a thoroughly disappointing sem. With an infinite amount of work to do and failure in most quizzes, I've been thrown into an abyss of darkness and despair. Due to over-indulgence in trying to change plus the annoying external problems that always bug me every sem, I'm now in a really really bad state. So bad that I don't recognise who I am now.
Frankly speaking, it's not really the low grade that hurts, but the lost motivation and meaning behind studying. However, things seem to be changing. Few weeks ago, I started to watch anime "Bleach". It's certainly a new-found entertainment. However, I realised sth very important from it. The main character Ichigo, in his fight with shinigami(s) from Soul Society to save his good friend Rukia, has displayed tremendous will to fight and survive, despite facing extremely strong opponents. Even in the brink of death, he will never admit defeat and die just like that. By gathering all his remaining strength, he stands up again and fight bravely. So inspiring!
I was kinda knocked heavily in the head. What in the world am I doing until now? Wasting time and becoming more and more stupid. I have decided! I must gather all my strength and will, standing up and fighting with purpose, passion and discipline again. A lot of times, things and experiences just slip through us quickly without us even realizing it. Therefore, I must cherish the moment and put in my best effort, rather than regretting after doing nothing at all!
Ganbatte, Herman-san!
