Meaningless Life

I've been getting moodier by the day. Many things going through my mind. So stressed. I don't know what to do.

Yesterday's interview proved that I'm really not suitable to be a process engineer or engineer in general. I just don't have an engineer's mindset and ability. I spent many years pursuing my interest, only to realise that I'm not cut out for it. I'm truly stupid.

Got a lecture from an old friend of mine in MSN yesterday night. What he said is true. If I continue studying science/engineering, I'll continue to stay in my comfort zone. Because we most likely won't take risk and always attempt to predict risk. We won't take bold steps to change life, so will never be able to change it significantly. Unfortunately, that's only part of the reasons why I'm so miserable now. I'm still bogged down by other stupid stuffs.

I have no achievements, be it academic, materials or life. Disliked by people because of my character, my stupidity and my inability to like/do things normally people would like/do. Because I'm unable to connect with others, I messed up my life. Can't find any jobs. It's such a torture...