Dreams Come True

Finally, today my dreams came true. I was so shocked when I got the news. I still couldn't believe it. I was glad that I took that huge gamble and risk. It worked out in the end. I'm really very grateful of everyone who has helped and supported me in this in one way or another.

I will leave behind those unhappy experiences and lead a new life. I look forward to the new challenges that come with this endeavour. God bless!

Pursue or Abandon?

Finally, it's going to conclude next week. I don't know what will be the result, but sth else is bothering me.

If it's successful, some of my dreams will come true, my life and perception will change dramatically and very probable that my die-hard personality will change too. My family and friends will be very happy for me, as I finally will have a chance to experience the life experiences of others which I've always been envious of.

But as usual, huge gains is accompanied by huge losses. I realised this immediately and know what else may be changed. I don't know if I have made the right decision to pursue this endeavour in the 1st place, because the impact of this change on me is large. I don't know how this progresses with time, but I really hope it won't turn out to be the worst case scenario which I imagined it to be, as they usually happen on me.

I hope I'm strong enough to overcome these challenges as time passes by. God bless!

In Solitude... Again

The time has finally come. It seems like a cycle. Solitude has come to haunt me again.

This blog started off happily and getting more and more sad along the journey. It has been filled with much memories. Nowadays, everytime I look at my blog, I feel it has become a stranger to me. No aim, no motivation, no excitement. The very motivation which started this blog has disappeared. I feel like closing this blog, since I don't know what else for me to write about.